[00:11.45]This a warnin' for the ones who say they aren't afraid
[00:14.53]Lately I've been comin' from a darker place
[00:17.51]I've been dealin' with depression, I'm more dangerous than ever
[00:20.08]I've been drinkin' again and never felt better
[00:22.27]I swear to God that I'ma burn a bridge and piss on the flames
[00:25.08]Mix the ash with some whiskey and spit it all in they face
[00:27.82]My new girl probably flip if you've got somethin' to say
[00:30.63]She reminds me of myself when I would drink everyday
[00:33.48]I used to feel like how I felt was just a temporary phase
[00:36.26]But now I feel like the feelings are ******' feeding off fame
[00:39.11]And I don't plan to slow down or give it a second to breathe
[00:41.86]I push the pedal past the breaking point, I'm pickin' up speed
[00:44.84]In 2016, swear I came apart at the seams
[00:47.62]I was scared of the dark and therefore afraid of my dreams
[00:50.43]But I rebuilt what came apart with iron alloy and beams
[00:53.28]Come fly a plane into my legs and I won't fall to my knees
[00:56.19]Haven't taken any pills to calm me down for a month
[00:58.85]I'm on the edge and I'm waiting for any reason to jump
[01:01.64]Don't take it lightly, I'm excited when they throwin' a punch
[01:04.45]I got a list of different strategies to bury these bums
[01:07.42]Very rarely do I carry all the weight of a grudge
[01:10.12]But I been barely ordinary since the prairies and drugs
[01:12.88]My imaginary friends in camouflage with some guns
[01:15.68]And I've been fairly military but my army is one
[01:18.73]They've been passive aggressive with how the deal with my message
[01:21.56]They lack the passion and reckless nature of truthful expression
[01:24.33]They ain't made of what I'm made from,
[01:25.91]They been bruised up and dented
[01:27.20]They don't understand the underhanded ruthless obsession
[01:30.11]That I was born with, slammed like the door sticks
[01:32.50]Closet full of skeletons,
[01:33.83]So heavy couldn't move them with a forklift
[01:35.95]Your ***** probably fell in love 'cause you forced it
[01:38.75]Now she bump my records while you deep inside a porn binge
[01:41.64]I woke up with a buzzin' in my head
[01:44.09]I don't wanna leave the comfort of my bed
[01:46.16]A dozen missed calls from a dozen of my friends
[01:49.07]And my day just started but it's comin' to an end
[01:51.99]Already gettin' dark, wake up with the stars
[01:55.00]I don't even know how I got home after I left the bar, yeah
[01:58.04]I did eight months sober, and I hate that it's over
[02:01.13]But the weight on my shoulder started breakin' my heart
[02:03.90]I started out with one or two, and then I moved to three or four
[02:06.98]And then I realized that I was back where I had been before
[02:09.93]Ativan's gone missin' from the bottle
[02:12.33]Tell my doctor they were stolen,
[02:13.81]But I know that they were swallowed
[02:15.34]Everything I ever did was always done with open throttles
[02:18.57]All the way or nothin', non-commitment is a broken promise
[02:21.46]And I know that that's a problem in itself
[02:23.84]But you're livin' or you're dyin' or you're cryin' out for help, yeah
[02:27.20]It's been a week since I've felt like me
[02:29.23]I've been starvin' but I just can't eat
[02:31.32]I'm exhausted but I can't find sleep,
[02:33.37]It's been harder than it's ever been
[02:35.40]The darkness hasn't ever dimmed, the light's so bleak
[02:37.69]I never understood what they meant when they said they were just
[02:41.07]The shadows of men that they had been before they were beat
[02:43.56]Now I know that everything I heard was for real
[02:46.26]When I'm lookin' in the mirror at a shell of myself
[02:49.22]I think that stress is a contributing factor
[02:52.00]The bein' 28 and feelin' older than dad does
[02:54.99]The wrinkles on my face spreadin' faster and faster
[02:57.80]If the good die young, I hope I'm one of the bad ones
[03:00.56]The day's long, stay strong and try again tomorrow though
[03:03.55]Even if you're runnin' out of reasons to ignore the phone
[03:06.37]Even if you're runnin' out of gas, go and borrow more
[03:09.24]Your demons knock the hardest
[03:10.44]When you finally chose to close the door
[03:12.19]This not the way my parents raised me
[03:14.80]I hope they realize they didn't fail one of their babies
[03:17.56]This is the result of a declining social climate
[03:20.40]That's original design was keepin' people trapped inside it
[03:23.24]Liquor and violence, we suffer in silence
[03:25.40]Until we embrace one another and find our collective defiance
[03:28.35]Will topple the giants, I just try to smile though the cryin'
[03:31.30]'Cause I know that someone,
[03:32.55]Somewhere's, feelin' way worse than I am
[03:34.56]And that's true (that's true, that's true)