Linkin Park - By Myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can\'t hold on when I\'m stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I\'m lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself (myself)
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can\'t rely on myself (myself)
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can\'t rely on myself
I can\'t hold on
To what I want when I\'m stretched so thin
It\'s all too much to take in
I can\'t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I Turn my back I\'m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they\'ll
Take from me till everything is gone
If I let them go I\'ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I\'ll be outrun
If I\'m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I\'ll be buried in the silence of the answer
How do you think I\'ve lost so much
I\'m so afraid I\'m out of touch
How do you expect I will know what to do
When all I know is what you tell me to
Don\'t you know
I can\'t tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do how hard I try
I can\'t seem to convince myself why
I\'m stuck on the outside
thank you god very much