[00:22.75]I been caught up in the darkness and my anger and my hatred
[00:25.56]I close my eyes and see myself hanging in the basement
[00:28.18]Dangling my legs, veins straining in my head
[00:31.00]Blood draining in the tub, drowning in it
[00:33.31]I been down in it: the mud
[00:35.32]I mean down in it: the dirt
[00:36.73]I mean really down in it, lost and found in it berserk
[00:39.42]I've been burned by the fire, scorched by the flame
[00:42.04]Of my own sins and desires so I call them by their names
[00:45.18]When they come, greed, gluttony, sloth, envy, and lust
[00:48.29]They're all enemies but they act so friendly with us
[00:50.66]They roll with two other guys we call wrath and pride
[00:53.78]Now I'm half as high as I am low
[00:56.24]I can laugh and cry at the same time but I can't slow
[00:59.60]Down feeling manicy, panicky, full of anarchy
[01:02.46]Can it be so simple to get rid of them with Ritalin?
[01:05.39]I'm trying to get into Heaven cutting out the middleman
[01:07.70]Every time I drift away I see myself dead and buried in the cemetery
[01:11.29]Accidentally staring at the sun
[01:13.53]Shining through the filthy glass windows
[01:15.28]Broken bottles in the bedsheets dangle bloody naked with a gun
[01:19.16]I'm living in this tiny-ass room with the mattress on the floor
[01:22.59]And an ashtray, look what I've become
[01:24.77]Light up a half-sniped cigarette take my last swig of liquor
[01:28.21]Smoke the filter down down till it's done
[01:30.21]But I ain't done
[01:31.71]I'm cold-blooded, stuck with the spirit of Hell frozen
[01:33.96]Here's a hole inside my soul, my fear and my self-loathing
[01:36.28]Got me hallucinating that all my walls are closing in
[01:40.21]I think I'm losing my grip, there it goes again
[01:42.84]These demons live inside of me, they talk to me and lie to me
[01:45.90]Whisper homicidally, I'm trying to get them out of me
[01:48.34]But I can see the side of me, it's just becoming clearer
[01:51.02]I'm starting to hate the sight of me, I break the fucking mirror
[01:54.01]Please Jesus just just just listen to my prayer if you can please
[01:56.86]I'm believing that these distances I've gone too far to leave
[01:59.48]I'm breathing in the sickness this addiction and disease
[02:02.40]This mess I'm in, this vicious is my missus and my mistresses
[02:05.38]I'm twisted and ballistic, I'm addicted to this world
[02:08.12]Forgive me for the pain that I've inflicted on my girl
[02:11.06]And my son, I was stuck holding his bottle and a gun
[02:13.86]And I couldn't get away where I was from
[02:16.16]Every time I drift away I see myself dead and buried in the cemetery
[02:19.57]Accidentally staring at the sun
[02:21.88]Shining through the filthy glass windows
[02:23.82]Broken bottles in the bedsheets dangle bloody naked with a gun
[02:27.56]I'm living in this tiny-ass room with the mattress on the floor
[02:31.00]And an ashtray, look what I've become
[02:33.38]Light up a half-sniped cigarette take my last swig of liquor
[02:36.69]Smoke the filter down down till it's done
[02:39.13]But I ain't done