[00:11.91]Honestly I’m exhausted.
[00:13.73]Why is my society so toxic.
[00:15.78]My sobriety affecting me like I was standing in a mosh pit.
[00:19.49]I just think I’m running outta options.
[00:21.32]Everyone the opposite.
[00:22.81]Hoping they don’t see me as a college kid.
[00:25.11]Cuz most of them don’t even know what knowledge is.
[00:27.34]I’m ripping up my scholarships.
[00:28.59]I just wanna be an artist now.
[00:31.04]And I know they’ll prolly hate me, say I’m watered now.
[00:33.75]I don’t got any trophies.
[00:35.63]I’m stuck on the shelf.
[00:37.06]Everyday is my battle.
[00:38.34]I’m only fighting myself.
[00:39.62]If I was ever deployed.
[00:41.06]I think I’d write to myself.
[00:42.52]They say they want me to fail.
[00:43.88]I’m not receiving no help.
[00:45.30]I’m not wanted, haunted by every comment.
[00:47.77]I promise I'm being honest.
[00:48.92]They just wanting the honor.
[00:50.46]I was never the starter.
[00:51.91]Breaking through all my armor.
[00:53.34]Maybe I’m just a joke.
[00:54.63]I Should’ve been working harder.
[00:56.17]Tell me okay
[00:58.48]It won’t stop the pain
[01:01.28]Life continues this way
[01:03.91]And I am drowning so
[01:07.63]Call me lonely, call me messed up
[01:13.13]Im just tired of this world and I’m tired of myself
[01:19.97]Right now I don’t know about it.
[01:22.02]Tryna think of anyway, that I can go about it.
[01:24.95]Lotta thoughts in my mind, now it’s overcrowded.
[01:27.49]Take a sec, and a breath to control the balance.
[01:30.42]Every minute adding up, on the stopwatch.
[01:33.25]Not enough time, feel like everybody bossed up.
[01:35.80]I cannot shoot, time is up on the shot clock.
[01:38.59]Wishing I could swish, but I’m still getting crossed up.
[01:41.61]Say you balling out.
[01:43.12]Friendship falling out.
[01:44.43]Always in some trouble, no one hear when I’m calling out.
[01:47.23]Hoping music gonna change my life.
[01:50.48]People leaving me I know that I can make it right.