[00:00.52]My momma gave me up when I was four years old
[00:03.59]She didn't destroy my body, but she killed my soul
[00:06.59]Now it's cold 'cause I'm sleepin in my back seat
[00:09.28]I understand the spirit's willing, but my flesh is weak
[00:12.65]Let me speak
[00:13.84]I never had a chance to dream
[00:15.59]ten years old and findin love in dirty magazines
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[00:18.60]Ms. December you remember, I bought ya twice
[00:21.97]Now I'm thirty plus and still payin the price
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[00:25.78]Had a sister that I barely knew
[00:28.16]Kinda got separated by the age of two
[00:31.22]Same momma different daddy so we couldn't fake it
[00:34.41]I saw my sister's daddy beat her in the tub naked
[00:37.41]Take it serious the demons in a man's mind
[00:40.47]The same man on rape charges now he's doin' time
[00:43.59]Crack followed him and like daddy prison thirteen years
[00:46.90]Haven't seen her I guess she's traded tears for fears
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[00:51.22]Shout, Shout,
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[00:54.22]Let it all out
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[00:57.16]These are the things I can do without
[01:02.59]So come on,
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[01:06.34]I'm talkin' to you
[01:08.84]So Come on
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[01:16.10]Sex was how I made it through
[01:18.29]Without someone to teach you love, what else is there to do?
[01:21.17]See where I'm from they call you gay, say you ain't a man
[01:24.23]Show them you ain't no punk
[01:26.11]Get all the girls you can
[01:27.48]A simple plan that still haunts me now today
[01:30.23]Back to seventeen and got a baby on the way
[01:33.47]No GED, all I see is failure in my eyes
[01:36.79]If you listening and remember I apologize
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[01:40.91]I was raised falling in the church
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[01:43.17]Made mistakes and heard the Lord's calling in the church
[01:45.97]After service in the parking lot getting high
[01:49.11]Wanted to be accepted so bad I was willing to die
[01:52.42]Even tried to tell the Pastor, but he couldn't see
[01:55.41]Years of low self-esteem and insecurities
[01:58.54]Church taught me how to shout and how to speak in tongues
[02:01.60]But preacher, teach me how to live now when the tongue is done, help me
[02:05.85]Shout, Shout, Let it all out
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[02:12.23]These are the things I can do without
[02:17.36]So come on
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[02:20.48]I'm talking to you
[02:23.73]So come on
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[02:29.98]See I, See I
[02:32.97]I just wanna let it go, just wanna let it go, just let it go
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[02:55.73]Jesus please on my knees can't You hear me crying
[02:58.71]You said to put it in Your hands and Lord I'm really trying
[03:01.73]You wasn't lying when You said You reap what you sow
[03:04.65]Like that night momma died, it's hard to let it go
[03:07.79]You adopted me, cared for me, changed my name
[03:11.15]But I cursed at you, lied to you, left you pain
[03:14.29]It's not strange I can still see it in my head
[03:17.15]To know for hours you were lying there in that bed
[03:20.43]If you're listening to this record
[03:22.12]If it's day or night
[03:23.49]If you momma is still living, treat your momma right
[03:26.49]Don't be like me and let that moment slip away
[03:29.62]And be careful 'cause you can't take back what you say
[03:32.87]To my real momma if you're listening I'm letting it go
[03:35.99]To my father, I forgive you, 'cause you didn't know
[03:38.99]That the pain was the preparation for my destiny
[03:41.79]And one more thing Lord let my son be a better man than me
[03:45.43]Shout, Shout, Let it all out
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[03:51.93]These are the things I can do without
[03:57.12]So come on
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[03:59.29]I'm talking to you
[04:03.54]So come on