I only went and ****ing did it Used to be a dream but now I ****ing live it Weren't even writing raps I was down and out about to ****ing quit it Lucky for me that I ****ing didn't See lily came along when I was at my lowest Selling wraps of coke not the raps I flow with I made it and I owe to a chat I had with her, Who knows where I'd be if that chat hadn't occurred Back with the bag,with the bag full of herbs init Instead I got her on a track and I murdered it My name started causing murmurs in the industry But none of these labels would work with it until virgin did Put my first single out and we earned a hit That's why whenever Phillipe and Darkus hear me I know it must burn a bit Just did a show and everybody knew the words to it The day I risked everything for I couldn't have given anything more All these years have weighed heavey But this is something that nothing could have readied me for What,you think all my problems are remedied Cos i get an applause!?they're not! Today I cried,and i don't know why But today I cried and I don't know why Today I cried,and i don't know why But today I cried and I don't know why My single went in at 3then my album went in at 2 For a debut not too shabby, if I have to I'll make do Finally some form of reward for the things I came through But it's different to the perfect picture people paint you On the way up you might be a person people take to Then you break through and the same people who rated you hate too All of a sudden anything you may do may make news And I'm sick to death of explaining was is and aint'true! Spend a day in my shoes and maybe you would feel the same to Though I know I've got to make the most of it there will be no take two And ungrateful I would hate to seem,cos'I'm leaving the dream now But I don't sleep now,and all these hours awake are making me senile Snapped every time i'm seen out,even people I been round My whole life are looking at me like I'm a new me now They say I've changed but I really don't see how I've always lived my life taking corners that I can't see round Never knowing what it is I'm trying to seek out But I'm even beginning to question me now Today I cried and I don't know why But today I cried and I don't know why （why?） Today I cried and I don't know why But today I cried and I don't know why （i don't know why i cried） I know it must seem mad to you it's mad to me All I've done is what I've had to do,been who I've had to be But the path I've walked has been so gravely It's been a strain to remain humane amongst all this inhumanity Thankfully,I had nan who was a mum and dad to me You can choose your friends,but you can't use your family Temporary,happiness for me has been a fallacy "His so sad,isn't he?"stick your sympathy it means jack to me I'm sick of hearing how happy I should be I just don't know how to be I can no longer pretend no more making out to be Maybe all I needs a slap,someone to shake it out of me Help me dispel my irrational thoughts and think more rationally I'm sick of being in this state of anomie,it's agony Am I torn or is it all some twisted form of vanity? Can it be,I'm really just obsessed with myself? Obsessive compulsive depressed my pressures reflecting my health? Taking care of my career but I'm neglecting myself Rejected therapy no I just won't accept any help I pride myself on my honestly but in all honestly today I lied I was asked how I was and I said I was fine,I'm not! Today I cried,and I don't know why But today I cried and I don't know why Today I cried,and I don't know why But today I cried and I don't know why Today I cried,and I don't know why But today I cried and I don't know why Today I cried,and I don't know why But today I cried and I don't know why