[00:00.85]Like man was saying, bruv
[00:02.27]Many nights man prayed, bruv
[00:06.37]Somewhere someone's gonna help me through this, man
[00:11.34]Someone is gonna help bring me out of this ****, y'know?
[00:17.20]Time, it took a while for man to recognise,
[00:21.41]Boy, who you were gonna send
[00:24.89]And you know what? Mans, I'm very proud
[00:27.50]I'm very happy to see it's one of my own init, y'know?
[00:31.18]And boy, I know none of this is easy, y'know?
[00:37.13]I'm just proud to be,
[00:40.33]To be witnessing what's going on, man, y'know?
[00:49.25]Look
[00:50.14]I don't know where to start
[00:53.06]But I just done my first psychodrama
[00:56.13]And I hope the world hears my craft
[00:58.92]I'm excited man, I pray you get to hear my craft
[01:01.62]From our childhood, our mother didn't hear me laugh
[01:04.36]I'm presenting you the future, I don't fear my past
[01:07.28]I ain't got a tattoo anywhere near my arms
[01:10.00]But best believe on my sleeves is where I wear my heart
[01:12.90]Do you know how easy it is to be a sinner?
[01:15.55]How many losses you need before you can be a winner?
[01:18.40]Reason with a criminal that needs to eat a dinner
[01:21.28]Is it survival of the fittest or is he a killer?
[01:24.16]Losing dad was big, losing you was even bigger
[01:27.04]Never had a father and I needed you to be the figure
[01:29.82]We're forgetting that we had a brother that was even bigger
[01:32.70]We were figures just tryna figure out who could be a figure
[01:35.50]My brothers never spoke to each other when I was growing up
[01:41.25]I remember tryna to build a bridge, I wasn't old enough
[01:44.10]I pray I hold the game for as long as you man can hold a grudge
[01:46.96]Years went by I know it's ******,
[01:48.66]I had to hold it up for mummy on my own
[01:50.75]I know it's tough, I got the coldest blood
[01:52.51]I remember when you got sentenced and I was throwing up
[01:55.32]It's like they took a piece of my freedom when I had opened up
[01:58.25]I just lost the only ******* person that I idolised
[02:01.08]For my entire life I copied you down to the finest line
[02:03.87]Bro, I got a flame in my mind I'm trying to firefight
[02:06.84]The pill I had to swallow wasn't bitter, it was cyanide
[02:09.68]I learn over time, separation issues I describe
[02:12.59]Are probably the reasons that I struggle feeling anything
[02:15.42]I ain't got a vision of a marriage or a wedding ring
[02:18.33]It's world domination in music or it ain't anything
[02:21.05]I'm obsessed, focused on the objective
[02:23.26]Tell a don yes, disagree, I object
[02:26.07]Used to treat my women like an object
[02:28.39]Girls want a monster come and see I'm the Loch Ness
[02:31.11]Settle for a lot less
[02:32.55]I just hope you're proud of me brother,
[02:34.26]It's been a long stretch
[02:35.53]You're my hero and prior to this,
[02:37.87]I was living on the edge like a house on a cliff
[02:40.66]But now I'm living in the present like my house was a gift
[02:43.63]I'm going psycho, this scene's mine bro
[02:46.40]Rappers wanna diss me, it's only online though
[02:48.89]They put the mic and soft in the micro
[02:51.68]Soft? Not I, bro
[02:53.42]Swimming's the only time I can lie though
[02:55.43]And lemme be genuine
[02:56.74]Anybody rich my age is American, kicking ball or inherited
[03:01.00]It only makes sense I'm independent knowing
[03:03.55]Everything it happened how I'm telling it
[03:05.29]You ****** aren't getting it
[03:06.69]I'm coming from the struggle I survived and I'm still here
[03:09.46]Used to bump trains that's two ways, I don't feel fear
[03:12.35]I don't know trust, I know a tight bond will tear
[03:15.29]Like a good wig, I can't tell you if it's real here
[03:18.16]I'm from south London, brother, people getting killed here
[03:21.03]You can make a mill'
[03:22.14]But you can lose it if you're still here
[03:23.95]I lost over 30 grand to family, I'm still here
[03:26.80]The word don't appeal to me,
[03:28.13]You steal from me I'm still here
[03:29.59]Bro, I wasn't made for this
[03:31.04]I don't get a break, but I'm aware of what breaking is
[03:33.81]I wish you could take a hint as well as you can take the piss
[03:36.68]I don't even speak to our brother, man, I just pray for him
[03:39.66]It's never too late for him
[03:41.09]Life is at it's craziness, walls started caving in
[03:43.80]All the things I've seen would turn a theist, atheist
[03:46.97]I didn't get 99 marks in English, I was faking it
[03:49.59]I got 98 ‘cause I don't know what a vacation is
[03:54.34]If you saw God what would you say to him?
[03:58.34]If given the chance would you have taken it?
[04:01.36]If you could rewind time what would you change in it?
[04:04.06]Do you believe in what an angel is?
[04:07.04]Furthermore, do you believe in what the devil is?
[04:09.74]Do you believe that I can illustrate what Streatham is,
[04:12.80]Then break the fourth wall and base Lesley on my relatives?
[04:15.57]I'm grateful for my life because I aimed for this
[04:18.27]Every bad moment every single ******* day of this
[04:21.11]People looking at me, that's what fame can bring
[04:23.51]But to understand the stairs,
[04:24.92]You take steps then retrace the ****
[04:26.89]I tell my circle, the future's ours, we're shaping it
[04:29.75]The past is just the reason I had came to this
[04:33.75]I thank God for the pain because it made me this
[04:50.12]I don't know if you remember those days, bruv
[04:52.97]In them days, there was one night in particular, bruv
[04:56.00]Came home and for some reason man put on a beat
[05:00.03]We were just in the front room, freestyling, bar for bar
[05:05.15]I don't even know how old you was these times, bruv
[05:08.04]Probably about, hmm, ten? Ten, nine?
[05:14.66]Yeah, man, if I think about it now,
[05:17.70]Think about the transition
[05:19.13]Them days there, you had no bars
[05:21.89]But let’s be real, did anyone, bruv?
[05:26.03]You know what I mean, it’s called context, bruv
[05:28.07]But, it was mad fun, bruv
[05:30.49]But the stuff nowadays today, it’s proper, man
[05:33.29]You know what I mean, man
[05:34.38]Thinking man's definitely blessed to see
[05:38.68]How the whole thing's come together
[05:40.09]From time, I think it was 'JKYL+HYD' man,
[05:44.46]You played man that one there
[05:46.52]Man was thinking, "Yo, this one here is a banger", bruv
[05:51.03]I remember when I heard that one live
[05:55.74]On the airwaves for the first time bruv, we was pumping it
[06:01.08]Man come to my door was like,
[06:03.87]"Rah man, that's a bit loud you know?"
[06:06.05]I'm like, "Fam, that's my brudda"
[06:09.56]He was like, "Yeah?"
[06:13.86]And you know, on your birthday, man sent you a little card
[06:19.00]And it begins
[06:21.63]'Jesse made seven of his sons pass before Samuel,
[06:24.51]But Samuel said to him, "The Lord has not chosen these."
[06:29.19]So he asked Jesse, "Are these all the sons you have?"
[06:32.91]"There is still the youngest,"
[06:35.29]Jesse answered, "but he's tending the sheep."
[06:37.69]Samuel said, "Send for him,
[06:39.92]We will not sit down to eat until he arrives."
[06:42.59]So he sent and had him brought in. He was ruddy,
[06:46.48]With a fine appearance and handsome features
[06:48.90]And then the Lord said, "Rise and anoint him, he's the one."'
[06:54.11]Bro, you know what that means?
[06:58.42]Say no more man