[00:00.20]Tuesday, 23rd of January, 2018
[00:07.67]I'm here with David
[00:10.51]This is our first session
[00:12.72]We're just gonna talk about your background
[00:16.33]Where you're from, any issues you've been dealing with
[00:20.77]So, where should we start?
[00:25.87]Look
[00:28.16]Stop all the pain
[00:29.66]How do you stop all the pain, huh?
[00:32.72]I used to hear a voice when I was praying
[00:35.11]But nowadays, I don't even wanna be saved
[00:37.34]Nah, **** that, I don't wanna be saved
[00:39.77]I was born to be wild, I don't wanna be tamed
[00:42.38]Talent's in my blood and I don't wanna be vain
[00:44.88]But if I'm a psycho, then I don't wanna be sane
[00:47.37]I used to dream of this s**t when I was hopping on train
[00:50.00]So, so bad, I used to want all the fame
[00:52.59]My ex-girl want to shoot a cover for Vogue
[00:55.10]Which is pretty ironic 'cause she's top of the range
[00:57.73]If any one of you take a shot on a track
[01:00.26]My ****** come back and put a shot in your frame
[01:02.88]Easy as the alphabet
[01:05.72]Three G's in the ring, call me Alvarez
[01:08.43]My teacher used to say I need counseling
[01:10.93]Couldn't stop asking me, "What do you feel?"
[01:12.95]There's so many old scars that they wanna reveal
[01:15.43]We got off on the wrong foot 'cause I don't want him to heal, nah
[01:18.64]But if you're looking for a psycho, you got one
[01:20.87]I thought I had a screw loose but I lost one
[01:23.42]Ninety-nine problems, money, it is not one
[01:25.99]My currency's Kenyan, that's in it for the long run, huh
[01:29.40]Tears on a pillow
[01:31.00]Bro, I shed so many tears on a pillow
[01:33.56]I used to tell my teachers that nobody gets it
[01:36.13]I don't know Clarke but I know that I'm a Kidult
[01:38.88]'Cause my mummy ain't been home, miss thinks I'm involved
[01:41.30]Blame my environment, it made me a sicko
[01:43.79]Furthermore, I should bring that ***** down to Streatham
[01:46.45]And then make her spend a day in a veil like a widow
[01:48.88]Kiddo, we seen swords longer than a limo
[01:51.23]My bros are blacksmiths like Jaden and Willow
[01:53.85]Man, there's weapons over here, we're reppin' over here
[01:56.42]We're from the Southside but it's Streatham over here
[01:58.96]No telling if you're selling, hold the wettin' here
[02:01.49]Get him over here, who the **** is checkin' over here?
[02:04.03]Most my ****** are the ones applying pressure over here
[02:06.49]**** assault, I can get a ***** peppered over here, whoa
[02:09.53]We wanted more, then some food on the strip or moving a brick
[02:12.39]My ****** went to school with the rich and we were broke
[02:15.06]Hiding crow in a Rubicon drink
[02:16.45]Which is funny 'cause that's how we put food in the fridge
[02:19.22]So, who am I?
[02:20.21]Someone tryna live his best life
[02:22.30]I just wanna take a pretty woman for a test drive
[02:24.61]If I bring her to my room and I press, I
[02:27.23]Guarantee she gonna see the force like an ex-wife
[02:29.78]People tell me I'm a little bit barmy
[02:32.21]For my army, I need a bottle of Bacardi
[02:34.74]If it's me and a pouch with my dargy
[02:37.39]Shawty, you're seeing two stars in the party
[02:39.90]**** what you heard
[02:41.72]I'm a top boy and I ain't giving man a turn
[02:44.25]I don't wanna know a pretty woman wanna flirt
[02:46.82]Learned you can judge a ***** by the women that he curves
[02:49.45]I love this game, I ain't lost focus
[02:51.94]I'm a hitmaker, if you ever noticed
[02:54.53]I could be the rapper with the message like you're hoping
[02:57.21]But what's the point in me being the best if no one knows it?
[02:59.73]Brother I'm a careful, humble, reckless, arrogant, extravagant
[03:03.63]***** probably battlin' with manic depression
[03:06.57]Man, I think I'm going mad again
[03:08.06]It's like I'm happy for a second then I'm sad again
[03:10.75]And to my fans, the reason I could get to this
[03:13.26]You're my drug, the instrumental my therapist
[03:15.90]Man, I need some therapy
[03:17.09]My girl saying that she'll never leave
[03:19.03]I'm scared she gonna find a better me
[03:20.99]Deeper insecurities, like
[03:22.52]What if I don't leave a legacy?
[03:24.67]Money, why they check for me?
[03:25.97]Mummy lost respect for me
[03:27.28]I wish we could be together but that ain't how life works
[03:30.85]I used to cry about my dad until my ******* eyes burnt
[03:33.45]Nose running, you don't know nothing
[03:35.50]Before I put a penny on the table, I provided for my family
[03:38.64]Held my mother's hand through the agony, hey
[03:41.28]You ever fall 'sleep 'case you don't wanna be awake?
[03:43.74]In a way, you're tired of the reality you face?
[03:46.31]If you're thinking 'bout doing it
[03:47.64]Suicide doesn't stop the pain, you're only moving it
[03:50.15]Lives that you're ruining
[03:51.41]Thoughts of a world without you in it, hiding
[03:54.70]I ain't psycho but my life is