[00:22.96]Pencilin' on a pad
[00:24.34]I been on my thoughts, like crazy, I need you back
[00:27.04]Prayers to the most high when I’m most high
[00:29.73]**** a good day, I'm happier when I'm sad
[00:32.37]I been on the road and speakin’ to no one else
[00:35.15]The money come in low, I'm dealin' with what I'm dealt
[00:37.93]This is for my unborn child, needed my help
[00:40.64]I'm lookin' for the type of the freedom that I ain't felt
[00:43.45]It's only gone to waste if you buyin’ a Gucci belt
[00:45.98]But we Gucci when we excel and that Gucci is not for sale
[00:48.49]Damn, don’t you leave me when I rebel
[00:51.37]My baby says she loves me, but she needs me to be myself
[00:54.20]Room full of vultures, cool, I'm coastin’
[00:56.96]You be boastin', chain on flex, but you be chokin'
[00:59.90]Ain't no jokin’, I been floatin'
[01:01.84]Off that green I'm smokin', they don't want this
[01:04.64]Smoke when I step up, east side resident
[01:07.51]Drink club president, made it out the ends and I'm the evidence
[01:10.76]Still gotta check on my mama, make sure she good
[01:13.34]She loves it when I come back for Christmas and eat the food
[01:15.89]There's nothin' like a blessing that's precious to what you do
[01:18.61]I'm learnin' to be honest with people that needed truth
[01:21.56]I'm keepin' it one hundred, I'm hopin' you keep it, too
[01:24.27]See, growin' is a process, I needed to see it through
[01:26.89]Damn
[01:28.76]Is this what you want from me?
[01:31.40]I give you all of me
[01:34.10]What it's supposed to be
[01:36.71]I'm learnin', I'm keepin' you closer
[01:39.40]Scared that my heart's gone colder
[01:42.02]Grindin' it out 'til it's over
[01:44.76]Take hold, and now you know
[01:47.96]Workin' it once I can
[01:51.66]Promise is forever, I'm startin' to understand
[01:54.22]The boulder's on my shoulders, I'm startin' to take a stand
[01:56.91]I gotta show the way for our people to make it out
[01:59.61]I was youth club killin'
[02:01.21]Kickin' bull when they gave the notice for eviction
[02:03.80]Sixteen had about five bills for it
[02:06.57]I gave it to my moms and told her I was down for it
[02:09.23]She told me that it's cool, that's at least a couple months
[02:11.93]I could tell by the look on her face it wasn't enough
[02:14.75]**** it, we roll with the punches 'cause that's what's up
[02:17.56]And our people would try and front
[02:18.90]I try not to go there, but **** it, it's what they want
[02:21.47]I never live my life for the vision of someone else
[02:24.18]I really gotta see, get a feel for it for myself
[02:26.81]Couple years back I was feelin' it with my health
[02:29.75]Yeah, I put on weight, I was hidin' from what I felt
[02:32.43]Bills, bills, bills had me feelin' like I ain't s**t
[02:35.14]Splashed a couple thousand, was strugglin' with the rent
[02:37.81]Thinkin' to myself, "How I get this deep?
[02:40.48]How I'm deep in the hole, and how my fam don't know?"
[02:43.14]Tryna keep the smile good to avoid convo
[02:45.85]But that s**t build up and them tears build up
[02:48.60]So if you're lookin' for a shoulder you can lean on
[02:51.06]Just to get the steam off, thinkin' what I kept closed up
[02:53.98]Damn
[02:54.79]Is this what you want from me?
[02:59.40]I give you all of me
[03:01.57]What it's supposed to be
[03:03.99]I'm learnin', I'm keepin' you closer
[03:06.61]Scared that my heart's gone colder
[03:09.30]Grindin' it out 'til it's over
[03:12.00]Take hold, and now you know
[03:15.33]That I been patient lately
[03:17.84]And though I been racin' lately
[03:20.60]All I know is darkness lately
[03:23.34]Ahh, yeah (Ahh, yeah)
[03:26.67]Prayin' that this world don't take me, no
[03:29.03]Everything I gave to my heart and soul
[03:31.79]I'm in need for somethin' that is real and not false
[03:34.57]Love me as I am, no, when I go and I know
[03:39.36]I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know...
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