[00:01.43]You hadn't seen your father in such a long time
[00:09.48]He died in the arms of his lover how dare he
[00:18.02]Your mother never left the house
[00:22.34]She never married anyone else you took it upon yourself to console her
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[00:35.97]You reminded her so much of your father
[00:41.76]So you were banished and you wonder why you're so hypersensitive
[00:48.16]And why you can't trust anyone but us but then how can I begin
[00:55.55]To forgive her so many years under bridges with dirty water
[01:00.95]She was foolish and selfish and cowardly if you ask me
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[01:10.69]I don't know where to begin in all of my 50 odd years
[01:17.24]I have been silently suffering and adapting perpetuating and enduring
[01:26.62]Who are you younger generation to tell me
[01:32.20]That I have unresolved problems not many examples of fruits
[01:38.07]Of this type of excruciating labor
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[01:45.20]How can you just throw words around like grieve and heal and mourn
[01:52.38]I feel fine we may not have been born as awake as you were
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[02:01.59]It was much harder in those days we had paper routes uphill both ways
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[02:09.95]We went from school to a job to a wife to instant parenthood
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[02:19.90]I walked into his office I felt so self-conscious on the couch
[02:27.47]He was sitting down across from me he was writing down
[02:33.73]His hypothesis I don't know I've got a loving supportive wife
[02:40.18]Who doesn't know how involved she should get
[02:44.62]You say his interjecting was him just calling me on my sh*t
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[02:54.42]Just the other day my sweet daughter I was driving past 203
[03:01.75]I walked up the stairs in my mind's eye
[03:06.49]I remember how they would creak loudly
[03:09.98]She was only responsive with a drink he was only responsive by photo
[03:19.22]I was only trying to be the best big brother I could
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[03:28.87]I've walked sometimes confused sometimes ready to crack open wide
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[03:35.69]Sometimes indignant sometimes raw can you imagine
[03:43.50]I pay him 75 dollars an hour sometimes it feels like highway robbery
[03:53.23]And sometimes it's peanuts I wish it could last a couple more hours
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[04:03.44]So here we both are battling similar demons not coincidentally
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[04:11.09]You seen getting beyond knowing it solely intellectually
[04:15.23]
[04:16.17]You're not relinquishing your majesty
[04:19.85]You are wise you are warm you are courageous you are big
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[04:28.21]And I love you more now than I ever have in my whole life