Time is passing and it seems that my depression
Is the only thing progressing, guess I havnt learned my lesson
I just turned 18 and I can't help
But fxcking think my life is gonna flop harder than me when I hit the water
Don't bother tryna be my fxcking friend, it'll end
Happiness is always fxcking borderline pretend
Cause I just see the bad in everything, I'll never make amends
I wake up and hate life then go to sleep and wake again
Fxck this, what kind of fxcking girl would wanna cuff this?
Tough sh1t, I'll guess I'll find happiness in nothing
You tell me "I love you" and I feel like that you're bluffing
Feel like I've tried everything, just to feel something
But nothing works, and everything hurts
You had all of this potential, I should of been dead first
If we could trade spots, I'd jump straight into the dirt
You were worth way more and I know that sh1t for sure
Breaking down more frequent life is just a sequence
Of events of sh1t we don't vent because of secrets
I'm tired of keeping it, so this is mine
I'm afraid I'll die with the regret of wasting time
I'm afraid I'll die alone and never be remembered
I'm afraid if Hell is real, I'll be used as tinder
But if not I'll just rot fxcking 6 feet deep
I wish I was dead and I'm only 18
I couldn't be happy if you made me
You could never stay around me long enough to save me
Nothing that you do could ever phase me
I expect the worse in everything so you can't break me
I been slippin' back into habits
How could I show love to you when I don't even have it
Still in pain, I'm just better when I mask it
Tired of my bed, I'll feel better in a casket