[00:22.53]Time is passing and it seems that my depression
[00:24.60]Is the only thing progressing, guess I havnt learned my lesson
[00:27.47]I just turned 18 and I can't help
[00:29.43]But fxcking think my life is gonna flop harder than me when I hit the water
[00:33.26]Don't bother tryna be my fxcking friend, it'll end
[00:35.92]Happiness is always fxcking borderline pretend
[00:38.65]Cause I just see the bad in everything, I'll never make amends
[00:41.40]I wake up and hate life then go to sleep and wake again
[00:44.44]Fxck this, what kind of fxcking girl would wanna cuff this?
[00:47.01]Tough sh1t, I'll guess I'll find happiness in nothing
[00:49.83]You tell me "I love you" and I feel like that you're bluffing
[00:52.79]Feel like I've tried everything, just to feel something
[00:55.60]But nothing works, and everything hurts
[00:58.25]You had all of this potential, I should of been dead first
[01:01.01]If we could trade spots, I'd jump straight into the dirt
[01:03.72]You were worth way more and I know that sh1t for sure
[01:06.65]Breaking down more frequent life is just a sequence
[01:09.58]Of events of sh1t we don't vent because of secrets
[01:12.29]I'm tired of keeping it, so this is mine
[01:15.01]I'm afraid I'll die with the regret of wasting time
[01:17.83]I'm afraid I'll die alone and never be remembered
[01:20.57]I'm afraid if Hell is real, I'll be used as tinder
[01:23.35]But if not I'll just rot fxcking 6 feet deep
[01:26.09]I wish I was dead and I'm only 18
[01:51.99]I couldn't be happy if you made me
[01:54.14]You could never stay around me long enough to save me
[01:57.39]Nothing that you do could ever phase me
[01:59.71]I expect the worse in everything so you can't break me
[02:03.14]I been slippin' back into habits
[02:05.35]How could I show love to you when I don't even have it
[02:08.29]Still in pain, I'm just better when I mask it
[02:10.84]Tired of my bed, I'll feel better in a casket