[00:00.30]To be honest I didn’t even want to make this
[00:03.89]I knew the topic I would talk about was frowned upon
[00:06.14]And heavily debated
[00:08.81]Everybody thinks I’m happy but I’m not
[00:10.95]And this here is my confession
[00:12.98]How I let a girl destroy me
[00:15.28]And then push me to the point of this depression
[00:18.84]Ya I’m talking about that do or die
[00:20.63]Ya I’m talking bout that suicide
[00:22.25]Got all these cars man but who gon' ride?
[00:24.08]****** my friend a couple times
[00:25.16]Told me all those ******* lies
[00:26.41]So I wrote a song so you could find out how I felt inside
[00:28.84]I swear to God I almost shot myself a couple times
[00:31.40]I should be dead
[00:33.49]So I had a talk with God and he told me
[00:35.47]I’d be hard so I asked if I could stay
[00:37.12]And he could take you instead
[00:38.27]Remember all the s**t that you was telling me?
[00:41.61]How you loved me and want nobody above me
[00:44.12]Now it’s funny all the s**t
[00:45.14]That you promised is just a memory
[00:46.49]You gave me something to believe in
[00:48.68]Then you broke me into pieces
[00:50.00]And it’s ******* with me mentally
[00:51.34]And I can’t trust no other *****
[00:54.11]Because I’m starting to see woman as the enemy
[00:59.12]I saw you texting with the dude and it was cool
[01:00.92]Because you told me you and him were just friends
[01:02.89]Then I caught you in the bed, let it slide,
[01:04.47]Took you back, and then you went
[01:05.81]And ****** the same dumb ***** again
[01:07.65]What the **** *****? I gave my heart to you
[01:09.98]There’s a kid that no ones knows about and me
[01:11.88]And you both know I am the father too
[01:13.61]That means I am apart of you,
[01:14.58]You went and broke my heart in two
[01:15.84]Then stabbed me in the back
[01:16.96]And watched me bleed and pulled an audible
[01:18.33]****! How you think this gon' end?
[01:22.39]Cause I been dealing with depression,
[01:23.60]Social media attention
[01:24.78]They expect me to be happy but I’m ******* depressed
[01:27.81]I swear I’m ******* depressed
[01:32.29]All the money in the world don’t mean a thing
[01:34.21]If you can’t share it with somebody
[01:35.47]That you love and that you ******* respect
[01:37.15]Do you know how it feels to be awake
[01:40.33]But all you want to do is go back to sleep?
[01:42.08]Because reality is suffocating pushing on your chest
[01:44.51]So all you want to do is go
[01:45.85]And live your life in your dreams?
[01:47.09]Do you know how it feels when the person
[01:50.02]That you love doesn’t love you back?
[01:51.76]When they say the right things
[01:53.04]But their actions are opposite of everything
[01:55.14]They tell you everyday to relax?
[01:56.69]***** I would've killed for you!
[01:58.52]Man **** all of this music s**t
[02:01.68]I’d pass up on a deal for you!
[02:04.16]Other ****** tried to ****,
[02:06.31]I swear I only saw the real in you!
[02:08.75]You cheated twice and now I can’t deal with you!
[02:14.21]It’s Dax
[02:15.70]Dear God
[02:18.91]I asked that you give me the strength, to trust again
[02:22.91]Please help me relieve this burden from my heart
[02:27.17]I know time heals all wounds
[02:29.17]And some just take longer than others
[02:31.41]So I'm going to trust you with this process
[02:34.89]Amen
[02:40.14]Everybody put your hands up if you can relate
[02:42.71]We all been there, this is for you