[00:00.000][Intro: Reason & Journalist]
[00:03.176]Yeah
[00:09.080]Mama I just killed a man, body is still tremblin', can you feel my hands?
[00:14.899]Don’t shed no tears mama
[00:19.058]Look, I said, "Mama I just killed a man. Body is still tremblin', can you feel my hands?
[00:23.475]Don't shed no tears mama
[00:24.651][Interlude: Journalist & Judge]
[00:24.875]Man convicted in the shooting death of the Milwaukee teenager will be behind walls until he’s at least eighty years old
[00:29.810]Police said: DeMario Denell Jackson shot into a crowd during a fight and killed a fourteen year old. Our Jonah Kaplan reports from court
[00:35.659]The court on count 1 is going to impose a life sentence in the Wisconsin state prison system with eligibility to apply for extended supervision in 56 years
[00:48.891]Yeah
[00:50.538]I guess I just gotta chill for twenty years
[00:53.811]'Til the judge say that it's okay to come out
[00:56.219]I need an escape and a way to run out
[00:58.947]People say that they love you but you ain't breakin' me out
[01:01.562]I'll probably die up in this ************, s**t
[01:05.523]I've accepted that and now I'm findin’ peace, uh
[01:07.443]Long nights I’ve been tryna sleep
[01:10.379]But I can't, so let me write you this apology, this for your girl:
[01:13.882]Look, I’m sorry, mama
[01:15.075]I put a bullet in 'em, I took your heart from you
[01:17.506]I killed your man and now you're forced to be apart from him
[01:20.218]You daughter walkin', who gon’ catch her when she start runnin'?
[01:23.162]I was only nineteen, doing foolish things for colors
[01:25.946]Your tears in the courtroom, I can tell you loved him
[01:28.595]I thought I was being gangster when I took his life
[01:30.867]Now I can barely sleep through a night
[01:33.090]I get it now, **** these colored dreams, s**t
[01:37.643]I get it now, **** these colored dreams
[01:43.730]**** these colored dreams
[01:49.899]**** these colored dreams, s**t
[01:54.443]I guess I just gotta chill for twenty years
[01:57.699]S**t, might as well apologize for the rest
[02:00.330]And to my brother I claimed I love you more than the rest
[02:03.162]If I really loved you how come I guided you to your death?
[02:05.890]You was only twelve when I got locked up
[02:08.179]Pops shook, no role models so the block looks like the only option
[02:12.746]Should have made you put them Glocks down
[02:14.451]But instead I showed you how to get it poppin'
[02:16.579]And you took to it, nah you was never shook to it
[02:19.428]Even if trouble wasn't around, you would look to it
[02:22.258]Throwin' up set, you let them know you wasn't no ***** 'til you run into multiple crips
[02:27.243]You let them ****** know you'll be down for your ******
[02:29.994]Thinkin' in your head, "Big bro' will be proud of a *****"
[02:32.603]I hate to have to be the way for you to go
[02:35.052]What's even worse, I couldn't make it to your funeral
[02:37.675]**** them colored dreams
[02:41.572]S**t, **** these colored dreams
[02:45.789]**** them colored dreams
[02:48.380]Look, mama, I know I killed that man
[02:50.658]Still remember tremblin' when you felt my hand
[02:52.883]Don't shed no tears mama, uh
[02:55.155]I know I won't be home for years, mama
[02:56.979]I know you feel like a failure to all your peers, mama
[02:59.756]You been a blessing to me
[03:01.019]I been a curse since birth to you, made s**t worse for you
[03:03.939]They let me out this second, I wouldn't even search for ya
[03:06.714]S**t, it only make it harder
[03:08.979]You care so much that you would kill for me
[03:11.251]I get your letters and I wonder how you still love me
[03:13.579]You say you pray every night and you still feel for me
[03:16.244]S**t and if you could I know you probably would do this bit for me, s**t
[03:19.564]So what's it been the last time I speak to you
[03:21.972]I want you to know I love you with everything in me
[03:24.395]It's insane to me, you share DNA with me
[03:26.875]We polar opposites
[03:28.108]I know I failed you mama, wish I could be your accomplishment
[03:30.836]So as I stand on this chair writing this letter
[03:33.316]Noose around my neck, the only way I do better is if I leave you now
[03:36.852]'Cause you been beaten down from them other things
[03:39.044]I ain't give you s**t a mother brings, I get it now
[03:41.676]**** these--
[03:42.316]*Choking*