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From a crack on my sealed window enters a ray of light |
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It falls down at the foot end of the bed that |
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I'm not going to leave (any more) |
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I curse you morning light, spot on my solitude |
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No one here to mourn with me the loss of hope in this life |
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The light that brings the day reminds me that |
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I'm dead I want to break out, |
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I want to be free |
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And leave behind these chains that keep me captive |
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My life a ruin, it has ruined me |
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I smell my soul rotting; it fades away with the years |
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O bastard life, for too long you fooled me |
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You made me believe that you are worth to live |
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A growing fury, a growing pain enveloped my soul, paralysed my heart love is a lie, hope is a morbid joke every day the same old song |
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I want to break free from this vicious circle |
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To hear some words of comfort, to breathe some joy |
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I have passed the point of no return since long: |
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The gravity of this black hole is too strong |
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Look at me, disappearing within its darkness |
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My God, it hurts more than |
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I could possibly imagine! |
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I must cope with the emptiness |
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Which has weaved its web around my soul |
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I've sunk in the abyss of desperation |
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And yet I'm here, a fool among the fools |
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The hour has come... the angel of death looks me straight in the eyes like a basilisk |
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He stands there staring with empty gaze- like an ancient statue and tries to break the shield which guards my empty soul |
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But all those joyless years have eventually dried my tears drained every emotion of my well-worn body which slowly rots and disintegrates |
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The angel smells the stench of slow death disgusted, he disappears into the night |
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I cut my flesh with my broken nails enjoy the fluid of life flowing |
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The cancer has left my heart and yet |
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I'm more than ever dead... |