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[00:00.00] 作曲 : Hodgson, Smith
[00:04.30]We had this lecturer once who said that memory was the absolute key to identity. To who you are.
[00:09.95]That there is no innate, natural, biological you who exists constantly. But instead, you wake up every morning and you have to remember who you are.
[00:17.05]And like, you go through this process where you open your eyes and gradually you remember stuff about yourself.
[00:21.86]Not emotions or feelings but actions. And as you remember the situations you've been in and how you reacted to those situations.
[00:28.53]Then they all add up to how you behave through the course of the day. So there is no defined you as such.
[00:33.35]Just what you did yesterday. And what you did ages ago as well. All these choices are what make you do or what you do.
[00:38.61]There is no self as such. Just memories of who you've been. And then he showed us this bloody Tarkhovsky film.
[01:07.06]But what I was thinking was that you could change yourself. If that was true，you could change yourself.
[01:12.44]I mean, if you misremembered something, just one thing, on purpose, you'd be a different person.
[01:17.76]If you convinced yourself that you never said that or you never punched him, then it would be gone and you'd be different.
[01:22.98]And maybe, you'd be better. So years later I'm at work and I get this e-mail about some mundane shite.
[01:29.32]I don't know, to do with photocopiers or something. And the person it was from had used an account other than their own.
[01:34.53]So the from at the bottom was different to the from at the top.
[01:37.24]And more than that, even though they'd actually typed my address with my name on it,they got my name wrong.
[01:42.40]So reading this crap, from Julie or Steven and to Peter or Philip I couldn't help but think what the fuck am I doing here?