[00:00.00] 作曲 : Hodgson, Smith
[00:24.36]In the darkness, he asks himself, "Did God make me this way? Did God do this to me? Did he make me do it?"
[00:32.01]And he looks down. Down at his hollowness.
[00:34.35]His twisted innards. And thinks, "This is me. This is me for life. I have to do it.
[00:41.32]So he has to lie there in the cold dark, amongst all those smells and the bent reflections,
[00:46.37]he has to lie there and be what he is. He has to accept.
[01:12.82]But it's different when he's doing it. When he answers. Justifies his utility.
[01:18.04]When he fulfils his purpose. When he is. His head spins and his arms rise. When he's tearing.
[01:25.91]Then it all makes sense. Then he has a purpose.
[01:27.38]Just before the wrenching. The heave. Like he was born to do it. Like it was what was expected.
[01:34.44]He only needed God for the darkness.
[02:25.61]He never blamed you. He never once judged, or smiled with the smooth, patronising corner of his mouth.
[02:32.15]He left it all to God. Then it's God who's doing it. His creator. Our tearer. That's why he never gets to drink.
[02:40.94]God won't let him. God wants it all for himself.